I have not written a lot of straight prose yet for the book. In my mind I have been going over and over the chapters, and the Aristolian curve, which basically means that the drama leads up to a climax. My story is one of a creature who is fated to destroy all he loves, to create something greater; to release souls by making the planet barren of life, to stop the cycle of reincarnation. All planets die, but this knowledge hardly helps him to deal with the idea of the massive death that he is fated by God to cause.
I have been going over and over in my mind what the build up will be and what fictional additions I wish to make to the book. I am not a big believer in satan or demons or angels or most any supersticious beings, though this could be purely ignorance. I do not want to use too many myths in this book, because the truths that I wish to tell have already been buried by the most powerful forces on the planet, and I do not want to shovel more dirt on their graves.
I know it is not very interesting to read how a book is written to many, but this will be meaningful to some, and may lead to a secondary book on how to write a book... though I think taking too much advice from writing books can lead to genre crap that has no artistic value, though is certainly marketable. If you are a student of writing who wishes to learn from me, you should probably read my books, where you will discover that I defy conventions... and while I have been read all over the world and my books have influenced the most powerful people in the states, and figures around the world, the CIA made me top secret, and despite my fame in some circles, especially hollywood and literature and rock music, they have smeared my name so much that the financial success and literary respect I once believed I would have is probably impossible now.... I was offered these things before, and found the chains that come with them... I would rather be obscure and true to my vision, then just another sell out to operation mockingbird, or even the basic conventions that excite agents because they are similar to this and that famous book. I hate it when I hear someone say IT IS A COMBINATION OF ---- AND --- , BOTH HUGE HITS WITH THE PUBLIC.
I keep seeing the first scene with myself standing in front of a fire, with a bear skin on my back for warmth, watching my tribe drugged and dancing, preparing themselves for a coming batttle at dawn. The book must travel thru time, showing different religions, which I will make up based on ancient myths, etc... and certain religions, though I want to avoid as much as possible placing the God of Many Masks in established religions, or well known historical figures. I do not want to splash the blood he spills on the icon of others.... this is the problem I have with using Jesus, but since the very real brainwashing I was given, classic, three days in a hospital I cannot remember, and the telling sign that I did not believe I was who I thought I was my entire life, though I did not know who I was. I finally found I believed I was Jesus, and had his memories of many things... this lead to absolute confusion on my part, a certain megalamania, etc... I was placed on an anti-psychotic, which caused horrible side effects, and did nothing except make sleep almost impossible for me. I am not psycotic, and had never had any delusions of graduer before the brain washing.... they were trying to use me in operation blue beam, in 07, here in Chicago, and a space ship appeared over Ohare the weekend this began, and was seen by thousands who claimed the government was covering it up. You can look that up with a simple computer search to get the exact date I was first aware that there was a secret world and they wanted me to be a part of it.... indeed, I think a lot of them thought I was already. Only one very strange incident had happened before this to foretell that something was coming and I might have to use drastic means to stop it, but that is not something I will write about in this passage, though you wil find a fictonalized version in the final book.
I did a chapter outline months ago, and the time has come to finalize that. Once this is finalized, I will begin the prose writing. I am better at prose than plotting. At columbia college of Chicago, they teach a method of writing that is based on allowing the scenes to organically flow out of you... this is fine, and it works well for short story writing, and comedy especially, for me at least. However, to stay on course and finish a book, one needs to have a very good idea of the plot, though being open to changing it You need to know what the THEME of the book is, so that can be the anchor of your prose.
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I will write more about this later. My daily life is calling. In the next few days I will be coming in here often, instead of doing the facebook writing that has been my primary mode since I was locked out of my other blogs... should you wish to read some of what I used to write, check out what was my primary blog for ten years, http://theelvesattic.blogspot.com There are also other blogs, like http://wakingupjesus.blogspot ... and others still if you google my name. I scavanged the best of them for books, one of short stories and the other, the experience of my brainwashing, which I wrote mostly in poetry. I always told myself that I have a lifetime to go back and work on these books, and since I lost my editor of fifteen years and had grown to depend on her, they are not as edited as they will end up being ... my thought was that as long as new prose is flowing, I would wait for a period when I was dried up and then fix the books, since they are for posterity, should that exist, rather than for the now.
The chapter ideas I have thus far show the One, as I will call him to make this easier, starting in an ancient tribe, where he will martyr himself to start a new religion, and leave his kingship to his kin. I will base this on ecco homo by Nietsche, where he writes that religion was started by people trying to evoke powerful ghosts to maintain control of tribes... then I will come back to the now. I will basically be telling two stories, one chapter going back in time and writing about lives One lived before, then the next coming into the present... towards the climax of the book, Jesus's life and crucifixion will be juxtaposed with the return of Christ, and his ending the world. I will see how this works, and if it is too confusing, I will make more of a straight narrative, with the old lives leading to the new... or I may decide to start with the now, where the One is helping with a revolution, trying to establish a thousand years of peace, as he hopes that his father will not use him to annhilate the earth. The thought as I wrote ways very heavy upon him, as does the death he causes, even though he knows they eventually go to heaven, though some experience something akin to hell for their sins in this life before being reawakened to the grand plan to end up going to Heaven, and while not becoming part of God, becoming part of the love that eminates from his presence, and draws souls to the timeless joy of heaven.
All souls go to Heaven. Knowing this makes me the most effective destroyers in God's creation. I am the destruction of life on planets, leaving barren meteor fields in my passing... I am known by the mystics, and just by chance myths, as the apocylpse -- not the feared one of your made up humyn beliefs. I offer mercy killings where I cannot work with a species enough to bring them peace, and they are on the verge of falling into a hell of their own making.
I took out the lasers from this on line novel...
For most of humynkinds history I have led slave revolts, started religions, or steered them, was an acolyte to your holy men.appearing at times as an Angel, a burning bush.... I am not an angel. Angels can fall. I cannot fall. I earned my position by being the first creature in all of the cosmos to say No to God. My kind collects souls from destroyed planets... entrophy says they all go. He would send those from my planet to give creatures a mercy death, though this was not explained to me... we followed orders out of love of God, our Father -- so to speak, He has no sex, I merely follow your traditions.
---- this is a novel in progress, which also is trying to teach how to write a book. I hope to get these two texts from this vlog. I am a well read and published author from way back with lots of education and experience, though I have never tried to do this before... as such, I took out a major plot device.. the lasers.... you will understand as the story unfolds......
I learned to love the creatures of the planet he sent me to that time, and how He laughed at me, How he seemed to love me ever more. His creation had taken on a life of his own and created Free Will. He allowed me then a variation on our ways, told me that he would send me to the very beginnings of the lives on the planet, that I could attempt to give them ten thousand years of peace before their end. I am the greatest mass murderer in the history of time. I will in the end destroy all that lives on this planet. The Father will decide if I have succeeded or not in steering the species to life or death.Our Father is pure love, and entity I have witnessed in a dream/vision, vast and timeless and immobile.
When a soul has their final death, and nothing is left on the planet's surface to draw the entity back into the cycles of living and learning, they gravitate toward God from every planet, dimension, time... I AM a different being, The Chosen One -- cursed I think at times... chosen for a mission that I would never ask of another. Instead of going back to God, where I began my existence, I instead feel the pull of the pain of other life forms, other planets that are like this earth, struggling with the suffering of the cycle of life.
Now I AM the Son of Man, living among you since before life began here... a creature who is lless than the Father who created us -- I use Father as your term, in reality you would no more apply a sex to GOD than you would a boulder. This is the tale of your planet, from the beginning to the now, as well as a prophesy of your possible futures... Your bibles have some truth, and one is that even the son does not know when the Father will bring on what some of you refer to the rapture, and others death by the greenhouse effect, others nuclear war, others the simple passage of time that eventually destroys all that is created... I am here to answer the prayers that began when your mind first was able to understand death... when you first began to spin myths to answer the questions that are not yours to know except in the most childish of manners... WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE DIE? I appear in each generation, awakening only after I have learned the ways of a time enough to fullfill my mission. They vary from situation to situation, fire to fire I trudge, bringing my soul into the worst of situations, to rekindle the FREE WILL that humyns have been granted; the only species on the planet that is not completly bound by ther genetic imperatives -- though they are much more than they realize. In one life I am leading a slave revolt; another teaching priests a new slant on religion; another an ancient warrior covered in bear skin barely keeping his tribe alive in desperate times... and now, a warrior in a shadow war fought behind the scenes of the media, between intelligence agencies, undergroud groups, the deeper levels of the Churches, the Masons, the oligarchies, the east and the west... as I try to prepare the souls on earth to choose between ten thousand years of peace, or the haunting visions of endless lightening flowing from my chest, and endless fire from my back, great streams of destruction encircling the planet and consuming the earth... What sounds like a horror will be, should the father decide your ability to solve your problems is hopeless, a mercy killing before the planet plunges into pure chaos, as the damaged atmosphere begins to destroy their crops, flood the coasts, sending cannabilistic refugees across the planet... and bringing a hell on earth God will not allow. My mission is to stop the wealthy from destroying the planet by living lives of luxury while most of the planet is plunged into poverty by their excesses. Already I have been recognized by presidents, popes, the leaders of all countries and churches... and also hidden, as best the intelligence agencies can, after they tried to use me, when I was still waking up... I tried to warn them that while I am forgiving, my Father watches what is done to His son, and exacts horrible revenge...
This book I am drafting will confuse some of you, as I write for those who are involved in the secret world they keep from the masses, though I will try to avoid this... there is cognitive dissonance in all minds, that will attempt to tell you what I write is all fiction, but my oath to you is that I will tell all I can about the ways of man that I learned when the elite attempted to make me create a world wide religion, leading to a one world government, and the carnage that has been left in my wake.... I cannot tell everything, so I use fiction where I must, and other incidents I must leave out entirely, because my writing has resulted in unintended death all across this planet. I am the most dangerous creation God has ever created. I am also the most forgiving.
I OFFER REDEMPTION AND FORGIVENESS for every soul that truly will change their ways.... others I have a special hell for, a place where they pay penance, and learn how much I despise the lifestyle they have just lived. Thank you for reading my words. Know that though I was greatly disturbed when I awoke in these times from my innocence, and this writing should be greatly disturbing to you, that God is love, and in the end, every soul will experience the absolute ecstasy of dwelling in the Golden Light of God's Overwhelming Love forever.
There are compiled entries where you can now read the story up to this point. This is first draft, where I write everything down at first, even though if some of it clashes with other parts... then later decide which way to go. I go back over these compiled chapters again and again, working on them to perfect them, and then working on what is to come, which is the roughest prose. All throughout the book there is more telling so far than showing, because a lot has to be told to bring the reader up to speed, on a war that has been going on for eight years, and has finally come to a head as the elite decide to genocide seven billion and the protagonist begins nuking .... well, let that be a surprise. There are two things going on here, the teaching of how to write a book, and a book... which will become clear if you read the blog. I HAVE MADE A MAJOR CHANGE SINCE DRAFTING THIS BOOK. I AM REMOVING THE USE OF LASERS. PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND IF YOU ARE READING THIS DRAFT FROM THE BEGINNING. I hope the chapters stand alone, in a way, from the over all text and can be read as a short story. The poet in me wants each line to sound as if their is a sonnet birthing... But anyways, the chapters I have now are being pared down, to where about five of them are kept, and the remaining chapters, which grow organically from all the ideas in the draft, are set in stone. You are supposed to let the novel lead you, according to John Gardner, and while I love his books, I think he could have plotted better. I aspire at least to be the student who surpasses the teacher, who added to the science of literature his contribution.
---- this is a novel in progress, which also is trying to teach how to write a book. I hope to get these two texts from this vlog. I am a well read and published author from way back with lots of education and experience, though I have never tried to do this before... as such, I took out a major plot device.. the lasers.... you will understand as the story unfolds......
I learned to love the creatures of the planet he sent me to that time, and how He laughed at me, How he seemed to love me ever more. His creation had taken on a life of his own and created Free Will. He allowed me then a variation on our ways, told me that he would send me to the very beginnings of the lives on the planet, that I could attempt to give them ten thousand years of peace before their end. I am the greatest mass murderer in the history of time. I will in the end destroy all that lives on this planet. The Father will decide if I have succeeded or not in steering the species to life or death.Our Father is pure love, and entity I have witnessed in a dream/vision, vast and timeless and immobile.
When a soul has their final death, and nothing is left on the planet's surface to draw the entity back into the cycles of living and learning, they gravitate toward God from every planet, dimension, time... I AM a different being, The Chosen One -- cursed I think at times... chosen for a mission that I would never ask of another. Instead of going back to God, where I began my existence, I instead feel the pull of the pain of other life forms, other planets that are like this earth, struggling with the suffering of the cycle of life.
Now I AM the Son of Man, living among you since before life began here... a creature who is lless than the Father who created us -- I use Father as your term, in reality you would no more apply a sex to GOD than you would a boulder. This is the tale of your planet, from the beginning to the now, as well as a prophesy of your possible futures... Your bibles have some truth, and one is that even the son does not know when the Father will bring on what some of you refer to the rapture, and others death by the greenhouse effect, others nuclear war, others the simple passage of time that eventually destroys all that is created... I am here to answer the prayers that began when your mind first was able to understand death... when you first began to spin myths to answer the questions that are not yours to know except in the most childish of manners... WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE DIE? I appear in each generation, awakening only after I have learned the ways of a time enough to fullfill my mission. They vary from situation to situation, fire to fire I trudge, bringing my soul into the worst of situations, to rekindle the FREE WILL that humyns have been granted; the only species on the planet that is not completly bound by ther genetic imperatives -- though they are much more than they realize. In one life I am leading a slave revolt; another teaching priests a new slant on religion; another an ancient warrior covered in bear skin barely keeping his tribe alive in desperate times... and now, a warrior in a shadow war fought behind the scenes of the media, between intelligence agencies, undergroud groups, the deeper levels of the Churches, the Masons, the oligarchies, the east and the west... as I try to prepare the souls on earth to choose between ten thousand years of peace, or the haunting visions of endless lightening flowing from my chest, and endless fire from my back, great streams of destruction encircling the planet and consuming the earth... What sounds like a horror will be, should the father decide your ability to solve your problems is hopeless, a mercy killing before the planet plunges into pure chaos, as the damaged atmosphere begins to destroy their crops, flood the coasts, sending cannabilistic refugees across the planet... and bringing a hell on earth God will not allow. My mission is to stop the wealthy from destroying the planet by living lives of luxury while most of the planet is plunged into poverty by their excesses. Already I have been recognized by presidents, popes, the leaders of all countries and churches... and also hidden, as best the intelligence agencies can, after they tried to use me, when I was still waking up... I tried to warn them that while I am forgiving, my Father watches what is done to His son, and exacts horrible revenge...
This book I am drafting will confuse some of you, as I write for those who are involved in the secret world they keep from the masses, though I will try to avoid this... there is cognitive dissonance in all minds, that will attempt to tell you what I write is all fiction, but my oath to you is that I will tell all I can about the ways of man that I learned when the elite attempted to make me create a world wide religion, leading to a one world government, and the carnage that has been left in my wake.... I cannot tell everything, so I use fiction where I must, and other incidents I must leave out entirely, because my writing has resulted in unintended death all across this planet. I am the most dangerous creation God has ever created. I am also the most forgiving.
I OFFER REDEMPTION AND FORGIVENESS for every soul that truly will change their ways.... others I have a special hell for, a place where they pay penance, and learn how much I despise the lifestyle they have just lived. Thank you for reading my words. Know that though I was greatly disturbed when I awoke in these times from my innocence, and this writing should be greatly disturbing to you, that God is love, and in the end, every soul will experience the absolute ecstasy of dwelling in the Golden Light of God's Overwhelming Love forever.
There are compiled entries where you can now read the story up to this point. This is first draft, where I write everything down at first, even though if some of it clashes with other parts... then later decide which way to go. I go back over these compiled chapters again and again, working on them to perfect them, and then working on what is to come, which is the roughest prose. All throughout the book there is more telling so far than showing, because a lot has to be told to bring the reader up to speed, on a war that has been going on for eight years, and has finally come to a head as the elite decide to genocide seven billion and the protagonist begins nuking .... well, let that be a surprise. There are two things going on here, the teaching of how to write a book, and a book... which will become clear if you read the blog. I HAVE MADE A MAJOR CHANGE SINCE DRAFTING THIS BOOK. I AM REMOVING THE USE OF LASERS. PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND IF YOU ARE READING THIS DRAFT FROM THE BEGINNING. I hope the chapters stand alone, in a way, from the over all text and can be read as a short story. The poet in me wants each line to sound as if their is a sonnet birthing... But anyways, the chapters I have now are being pared down, to where about five of them are kept, and the remaining chapters, which grow organically from all the ideas in the draft, are set in stone. You are supposed to let the novel lead you, according to John Gardner, and while I love his books, I think he could have plotted better. I aspire at least to be the student who surpasses the teacher, who added to the science of literature his contribution.
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