is among the many groups that I have never been able to adequately get my mind around. Along with the idea of the Emperor wanting Colorado. I should have realized more of this was centered on me than I did. What is forgotten in this history is that I was being acted upon and was merely swinging in the dark at anything that got close to me... and foolishly in denial when I was told that something was happening, never seeing how these things could have anything to do with me. Now that I can see a bit of this, I know there is no making this right. Right and wrong are long gone... they left when my short stories and book suddenly became viewed as anything more than what they were to me. And they were not some plan that I had laid out. This is stating the obvious by now, I hope. Or not mine. They were GOD'S, though I cannot begin to tell you why, He wanted this earth broke with a rod...
I do not even know if there is any reason to explain myself further on these matters. What do you care what I think of religion after all this? I simply cannot just go on with my life like nothing happened. I feel responsible, though at the same time I realize that I could not have acted much differently, being who I am, with the little that I knew. About all I could do once I started to learn what was going on in the world was try to stop all hell from breaking loose. I was told to watch the show Dominion, THOSE ARE YOUR PEOPLE... I was told. I remember other sentences I heard, like four, that point to the same thing. And the whole, escape to Colorado business. The whole PERFECT ALIBI business. I have never needed an alibi... I remember saying I AM JESUS CHRIST, EVERYTHING I DO IS SIGNIFICANT. This led I suppose to all kinds of mayhem and the watching. Everything you do is significant, too,... that hardly means you want people to watch you all the time, or if it does I feel sorry for you.
I still do not understand much of what has happened... other than what sometimes seems like a lost opportunity was in fact, as far as I can tell, the only way to stop a complete take over by groups I would not want running the world. I still do not understand who MY FAMILY is, who various people told me they were on tv. I suppose these dogs, who I fundamentally have one difference with, though that is hardly enough for me to give a shit about... at least the one I heard, about no intermarriage. A lot of groups feel this way and while I find it stupid and none of their business, it is not something I am going to fight someone over. I was the one who told you to intermarry... but at the last of it, when I thought the problems Mary Ann and I were having were impossible to get over, and no longer trusted her, I saw a picture of two people getting married and without explaining myself, thought, WHO AM I GOING TO MARRY? I was pissed at not having a life. That was all. I do not want to write the one ramification that I believe came from that because it is too heartbreaking,. God saw me thru that.... I had to have love in my heart in that broken time, and the only way to do that without being unfaithful was for the people to be far away on the internet. The stupidity of Dylan's video on this matter still pisses me off, but after finding out he is just another sell out slave, I have to forgive him like all the rest of you. I was shown that I am a soul in a body and most of you are told to take that on faith, which is not easy, so I get it....
I know you kept tabs on me for the last few years, and last February I did one of my periodic checks to see if I had any kind of power base left, which still seemed to exist in some form. When you first announced yourself to me, and a young man with a tie told me of the groups of five, my first reaction was just to tell you to go home... that was not what I meant. I was being literal. Just protest, I thought... I would certainly have done that differently now... I heard only the worst of what you did. I can see why if you thought I was directing all my bile towards the world in manners that I wanted people killed why you would have reacted as you did, but that was never my intent. I have never hated any group, because I do not stereotype. I guess if there is one exception to that it is the uber rich, but I base that primarily on their actions... THIS IS NOTHING YOU CAN CHANGE ABOUT ME. There are plenty of my beliefs that I will take to my grave rather than give up to live. Life means very little to me, but that little is there. I believe I am here because of God and that says I cannot throw this body away, that I have to wait until he comes for me to leave.
When I think how close this all came to my going to write speeches for Obama and making money... would I have found out then what you were up to, or would that have all been kept from me, and I would have just had this nice cover life that I did not know was a cover life? I have no idea, but I would rather have been humbled as I was then not learn the truth. I was trying to please all of you, and I am sure you knew I would have that within me or I would not have been chosen to be your puppet. I keep wanting to write here that of course you were punished for treating me like shit. Of course you were punished for brainwashing me. Your little plan may or may not have backfired, I do not know... still looks like the world is going to hell in a handbasket.
I was stupidly thinking that everyone would be happy I was back and allow me a few wise men to counsel me and lead me thru the experiences I was having, which made no sense. The last thing I had ever wanted was a violent revolution. I started to want one after the way I was treated, that was for damn sure... what I thought were puppet strings coming down from heaven were chains from very real groups here on earth.
I still wake up at times feeling murderous for being made out to have made decisions that had nothing to do with me, and being told that I had somehow ordered the hell on earth that was described to me. I tried to protect certain groups that had been marginalized and they ran with that and elevated themselves to divine beings on earth,. Let's set one record straight right here -- none of you are divine beings. NONE OF YOU ARE ANGELS, NONE OF YOU ARE DEMONS. You are humans. You have souls that are special but your flesh is just a cocoon, whether you wish to acknowledge as much or not I do not care. God does not care. Does it make any sense to anyone that God would create creatures that he would then mostly damn? Those are the ways of men and their wars. Not the way of God.
I wanted to please all of you. I thought by going along with you that somehow I would be freed and allowed to walk openly as a person with a talent, and act on these talents to fulfill the same dreams that are instilled in all americans, wealth and fame. Pretty simple stuff. I had no idea I had a calling. You had no idea what a God really is... you wrote yourself into your petty tracts. The wisdom of man can be great. The wisdom of God is not yours to be had, and this has always frustrated humans, and left them jumping from religion to religion throughout time. The best bits would stay behind and be used. The salt would go away. Until modern times and writing basically gave priests the ability to pretend themselves special beings.
I hated being filmed in my house so much that I would never cater to you. I acted in ways I would not have if I had realized this was meant as something more than a torture device. The confusion of going from one channel and seeing myself vilified to another and seeing myself elevated was due to what is obvious to you, the stations are controlled, ever so slightly, by different factions. I wanted to hate the one for being this way, and the other for being that way, etc... and always will hate Disney, regardless, for trying to make a monarchy out of the USA, and what they did to the Jews in my name. I have come to hate Israel, though I still do not blame all of the citizens for what their leaders have done to them. Nor would I ever extend that hatred to Jews in general. I have also come to despise a lot of people. The criminals who said I was working with them and preyed on the people and did other things. I at least can understand their motivation. It does not matter how I feel after all this though. What matters? I do not even know. Peace would be nice, but without justice, the peace of slaves is unacceptable.
All souls go to Heaven. Knowing this makes me the most effective destroyers in God's creation. I am the destruction of life on planets, leaving barren meteor fields in my passing... I am known by the mystics, and just by chance myths, as the apocylpse -- not the feared one of your made up humyn beliefs. I offer mercy killings where I cannot work with a species enough to bring them peace, and they are on the verge of falling into a hell of their own making.
I took out the lasers from this on line novel...
For most of humynkinds history I have led slave revolts, started religions, or steered them, was an acolyte to your holy men.appearing at times as an Angel, a burning bush.... I am not an angel. Angels can fall. I cannot fall. I earned my position by being the first creature in all of the cosmos to say No to God. My kind collects souls from destroyed planets... entrophy says they all go. He would send those from my planet to give creatures a mercy death, though this was not explained to me... we followed orders out of love of God, our Father -- so to speak, He has no sex, I merely follow your traditions.
---- this is a novel in progress, which also is trying to teach how to write a book. I hope to get these two texts from this vlog. I am a well read and published author from way back with lots of education and experience, though I have never tried to do this before... as such, I took out a major plot device.. the lasers.... you will understand as the story unfolds......
I learned to love the creatures of the planet he sent me to that time, and how He laughed at me, How he seemed to love me ever more. His creation had taken on a life of his own and created Free Will. He allowed me then a variation on our ways, told me that he would send me to the very beginnings of the lives on the planet, that I could attempt to give them ten thousand years of peace before their end. I am the greatest mass murderer in the history of time. I will in the end destroy all that lives on this planet. The Father will decide if I have succeeded or not in steering the species to life or death.Our Father is pure love, and entity I have witnessed in a dream/vision, vast and timeless and immobile.
When a soul has their final death, and nothing is left on the planet's surface to draw the entity back into the cycles of living and learning, they gravitate toward God from every planet, dimension, time... I AM a different being, The Chosen One -- cursed I think at times... chosen for a mission that I would never ask of another. Instead of going back to God, where I began my existence, I instead feel the pull of the pain of other life forms, other planets that are like this earth, struggling with the suffering of the cycle of life.
Now I AM the Son of Man, living among you since before life began here... a creature who is lless than the Father who created us -- I use Father as your term, in reality you would no more apply a sex to GOD than you would a boulder. This is the tale of your planet, from the beginning to the now, as well as a prophesy of your possible futures... Your bibles have some truth, and one is that even the son does not know when the Father will bring on what some of you refer to the rapture, and others death by the greenhouse effect, others nuclear war, others the simple passage of time that eventually destroys all that is created... I am here to answer the prayers that began when your mind first was able to understand death... when you first began to spin myths to answer the questions that are not yours to know except in the most childish of manners... WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE DIE? I appear in each generation, awakening only after I have learned the ways of a time enough to fullfill my mission. They vary from situation to situation, fire to fire I trudge, bringing my soul into the worst of situations, to rekindle the FREE WILL that humyns have been granted; the only species on the planet that is not completly bound by ther genetic imperatives -- though they are much more than they realize. In one life I am leading a slave revolt; another teaching priests a new slant on religion; another an ancient warrior covered in bear skin barely keeping his tribe alive in desperate times... and now, a warrior in a shadow war fought behind the scenes of the media, between intelligence agencies, undergroud groups, the deeper levels of the Churches, the Masons, the oligarchies, the east and the west... as I try to prepare the souls on earth to choose between ten thousand years of peace, or the haunting visions of endless lightening flowing from my chest, and endless fire from my back, great streams of destruction encircling the planet and consuming the earth... What sounds like a horror will be, should the father decide your ability to solve your problems is hopeless, a mercy killing before the planet plunges into pure chaos, as the damaged atmosphere begins to destroy their crops, flood the coasts, sending cannabilistic refugees across the planet... and bringing a hell on earth God will not allow. My mission is to stop the wealthy from destroying the planet by living lives of luxury while most of the planet is plunged into poverty by their excesses. Already I have been recognized by presidents, popes, the leaders of all countries and churches... and also hidden, as best the intelligence agencies can, after they tried to use me, when I was still waking up... I tried to warn them that while I am forgiving, my Father watches what is done to His son, and exacts horrible revenge...
This book I am drafting will confuse some of you, as I write for those who are involved in the secret world they keep from the masses, though I will try to avoid this... there is cognitive dissonance in all minds, that will attempt to tell you what I write is all fiction, but my oath to you is that I will tell all I can about the ways of man that I learned when the elite attempted to make me create a world wide religion, leading to a one world government, and the carnage that has been left in my wake.... I cannot tell everything, so I use fiction where I must, and other incidents I must leave out entirely, because my writing has resulted in unintended death all across this planet. I am the most dangerous creation God has ever created. I am also the most forgiving.
I OFFER REDEMPTION AND FORGIVENESS for every soul that truly will change their ways.... others I have a special hell for, a place where they pay penance, and learn how much I despise the lifestyle they have just lived. Thank you for reading my words. Know that though I was greatly disturbed when I awoke in these times from my innocence, and this writing should be greatly disturbing to you, that God is love, and in the end, every soul will experience the absolute ecstasy of dwelling in the Golden Light of God's Overwhelming Love forever.
There are compiled entries where you can now read the story up to this point. This is first draft, where I write everything down at first, even though if some of it clashes with other parts... then later decide which way to go. I go back over these compiled chapters again and again, working on them to perfect them, and then working on what is to come, which is the roughest prose. All throughout the book there is more telling so far than showing, because a lot has to be told to bring the reader up to speed, on a war that has been going on for eight years, and has finally come to a head as the elite decide to genocide seven billion and the protagonist begins nuking .... well, let that be a surprise. There are two things going on here, the teaching of how to write a book, and a book... which will become clear if you read the blog. I HAVE MADE A MAJOR CHANGE SINCE DRAFTING THIS BOOK. I AM REMOVING THE USE OF LASERS. PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND IF YOU ARE READING THIS DRAFT FROM THE BEGINNING. I hope the chapters stand alone, in a way, from the over all text and can be read as a short story. The poet in me wants each line to sound as if their is a sonnet birthing... But anyways, the chapters I have now are being pared down, to where about five of them are kept, and the remaining chapters, which grow organically from all the ideas in the draft, are set in stone. You are supposed to let the novel lead you, according to John Gardner, and while I love his books, I think he could have plotted better. I aspire at least to be the student who surpasses the teacher, who added to the science of literature his contribution.
---- this is a novel in progress, which also is trying to teach how to write a book. I hope to get these two texts from this vlog. I am a well read and published author from way back with lots of education and experience, though I have never tried to do this before... as such, I took out a major plot device.. the lasers.... you will understand as the story unfolds......
I learned to love the creatures of the planet he sent me to that time, and how He laughed at me, How he seemed to love me ever more. His creation had taken on a life of his own and created Free Will. He allowed me then a variation on our ways, told me that he would send me to the very beginnings of the lives on the planet, that I could attempt to give them ten thousand years of peace before their end. I am the greatest mass murderer in the history of time. I will in the end destroy all that lives on this planet. The Father will decide if I have succeeded or not in steering the species to life or death.Our Father is pure love, and entity I have witnessed in a dream/vision, vast and timeless and immobile.
When a soul has their final death, and nothing is left on the planet's surface to draw the entity back into the cycles of living and learning, they gravitate toward God from every planet, dimension, time... I AM a different being, The Chosen One -- cursed I think at times... chosen for a mission that I would never ask of another. Instead of going back to God, where I began my existence, I instead feel the pull of the pain of other life forms, other planets that are like this earth, struggling with the suffering of the cycle of life.
Now I AM the Son of Man, living among you since before life began here... a creature who is lless than the Father who created us -- I use Father as your term, in reality you would no more apply a sex to GOD than you would a boulder. This is the tale of your planet, from the beginning to the now, as well as a prophesy of your possible futures... Your bibles have some truth, and one is that even the son does not know when the Father will bring on what some of you refer to the rapture, and others death by the greenhouse effect, others nuclear war, others the simple passage of time that eventually destroys all that is created... I am here to answer the prayers that began when your mind first was able to understand death... when you first began to spin myths to answer the questions that are not yours to know except in the most childish of manners... WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE DIE? I appear in each generation, awakening only after I have learned the ways of a time enough to fullfill my mission. They vary from situation to situation, fire to fire I trudge, bringing my soul into the worst of situations, to rekindle the FREE WILL that humyns have been granted; the only species on the planet that is not completly bound by ther genetic imperatives -- though they are much more than they realize. In one life I am leading a slave revolt; another teaching priests a new slant on religion; another an ancient warrior covered in bear skin barely keeping his tribe alive in desperate times... and now, a warrior in a shadow war fought behind the scenes of the media, between intelligence agencies, undergroud groups, the deeper levels of the Churches, the Masons, the oligarchies, the east and the west... as I try to prepare the souls on earth to choose between ten thousand years of peace, or the haunting visions of endless lightening flowing from my chest, and endless fire from my back, great streams of destruction encircling the planet and consuming the earth... What sounds like a horror will be, should the father decide your ability to solve your problems is hopeless, a mercy killing before the planet plunges into pure chaos, as the damaged atmosphere begins to destroy their crops, flood the coasts, sending cannabilistic refugees across the planet... and bringing a hell on earth God will not allow. My mission is to stop the wealthy from destroying the planet by living lives of luxury while most of the planet is plunged into poverty by their excesses. Already I have been recognized by presidents, popes, the leaders of all countries and churches... and also hidden, as best the intelligence agencies can, after they tried to use me, when I was still waking up... I tried to warn them that while I am forgiving, my Father watches what is done to His son, and exacts horrible revenge...
This book I am drafting will confuse some of you, as I write for those who are involved in the secret world they keep from the masses, though I will try to avoid this... there is cognitive dissonance in all minds, that will attempt to tell you what I write is all fiction, but my oath to you is that I will tell all I can about the ways of man that I learned when the elite attempted to make me create a world wide religion, leading to a one world government, and the carnage that has been left in my wake.... I cannot tell everything, so I use fiction where I must, and other incidents I must leave out entirely, because my writing has resulted in unintended death all across this planet. I am the most dangerous creation God has ever created. I am also the most forgiving.
I OFFER REDEMPTION AND FORGIVENESS for every soul that truly will change their ways.... others I have a special hell for, a place where they pay penance, and learn how much I despise the lifestyle they have just lived. Thank you for reading my words. Know that though I was greatly disturbed when I awoke in these times from my innocence, and this writing should be greatly disturbing to you, that God is love, and in the end, every soul will experience the absolute ecstasy of dwelling in the Golden Light of God's Overwhelming Love forever.
There are compiled entries where you can now read the story up to this point. This is first draft, where I write everything down at first, even though if some of it clashes with other parts... then later decide which way to go. I go back over these compiled chapters again and again, working on them to perfect them, and then working on what is to come, which is the roughest prose. All throughout the book there is more telling so far than showing, because a lot has to be told to bring the reader up to speed, on a war that has been going on for eight years, and has finally come to a head as the elite decide to genocide seven billion and the protagonist begins nuking .... well, let that be a surprise. There are two things going on here, the teaching of how to write a book, and a book... which will become clear if you read the blog. I HAVE MADE A MAJOR CHANGE SINCE DRAFTING THIS BOOK. I AM REMOVING THE USE OF LASERS. PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND IF YOU ARE READING THIS DRAFT FROM THE BEGINNING. I hope the chapters stand alone, in a way, from the over all text and can be read as a short story. The poet in me wants each line to sound as if their is a sonnet birthing... But anyways, the chapters I have now are being pared down, to where about five of them are kept, and the remaining chapters, which grow organically from all the ideas in the draft, are set in stone. You are supposed to let the novel lead you, according to John Gardner, and while I love his books, I think he could have plotted better. I aspire at least to be the student who surpasses the teacher, who added to the science of literature his contribution.
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